(via nolanlind)Source: thinkingaboutgiraffes
My cousin had 2 seizures today. My Grandpa died 2 weeks ago today & my Dad has chemo hopefully for the last time tomorrow. I still haven’t heard back about my blood tests.
So many emotions. So many I can’t begin to describe what I’m feeling. Loss, sadness, anger, pain, happiness, guilt, panic, fear.
I scared about my blood tests. I feel guilty for my happiness. I feel sad & panic that Tess had seizures. I feel anger because this only happens to our family. Well it feels like it at least. My wedding day I said good bye to my grandpa. I said final goodbyes. That’s heart breaking. I have no grandpas now.
It’s the Christmas season, I’m feeling that joy. That happiness that comes
From this time of year. I’m going to feel happiness. I won’t feel guilty & when I’m sad I’ll talk about it. I won’t hold it in till I melt down. I will take care of not only my body, but, my mental health as well.
My husband. I’m humble bragging about how amazing he is. I don’t share enough about how he has made my world so much better.